Sleep?

I went into Easter weekend tired after a really bad night's sleep Wednesday night. By Sunday morning, I couldn't even pretend to hide the circles under my eyes with make-up and I was crying about dumb things, which really isn't typical. Fortunately, I figured that this ship called life would get righted once the holiday was behind us, providing me the rest I was really in need of.

Ha.

Aubrey caught the cold/cough that Bronwyn had and by Sunday night was not doing very well. That night, the only way I found she would sleep was with me sitting almost completely upright while she lay on my chest. Needless to say, the only real sleep I got that night was during the hour and a half or so when Daniel volunteered to do the honors of being a Human Bed for Aubrey.

Last night was only marginally better. Aubrey slept in her carseat for about two whole hours before she woke and needed constant reassurances of my love and arms. She's doing a bit better with coordinating breathing and nursing around coughing, so at least last night was less restless since her belly wasn't quite so empty.

Napping hasn't really worked either, since Aubrey can't recline without an ensuing coughing fit. Not to mention that there's a baby shower here tonight for my friend (who's having twin boys, by the way!) and I'm too busy having fun getting ready for it.

On Sunday, I felt as though I was running on empty. At this point, I am officially running on fumes. And since I gave up drinking even decaf coffee except on special occasions, my only source of energy has been the chocolate malted eggs Daniel bought on clearance yesterday for me. Healthy, eh?

I keep telling myself that I'll soon get a chance to catch up. Mostly, though, I'm getting another lesson in learning to rely on His grace rather than natural means to get through each day. I know that if this is all the sleep I am getting, it must be enough, because He is always faithful to make sure that I have everything I need.